Looking For Me

My garden heart

is growing now

the pain has warmed

my healing feels

it came from knowing

how unreal

things really were

until I retrieved her.

Hello I see you now.

Where I looked longingly

you were not,

where I searched

you were unseen,

where I lived

you had been

and now delightedly

I have found

the earth you tread is crystal ground.

The Love has come

to warm my heart

so wind-chimes bring

deeper resonance

by looking-in

to where my story did begin

a chapter writes itself anew

as I let go of searching you

I found the Little One.

The looking child lost to me

found hope and wholeness in the happily

ever after.

I want you to know I see you. I love you. You are deeply loved.

Momentum

momentum happens all around.....
Choose where your gaze will land
unseen there is a helping hand

Waiting

Here and now

there and then

back we go to when

you were in a different place

and no one there

who you know now

and even so you know somehow

this is me

and you are gone

this is where

the winds have blown

this is where I am alone

and here I go to a new home

where life is simple

so calm and strange

and familiarity is not with me

and all around are views to see,

from different windows and different rooms

and I know this is a shell outside

who I am, no where to hide

no trees I planted or beautiful ways

to remember you as I pass my days.

Give me time I will adjust

I will move along when I must

I will wait, my time it comes

marching to a different drum.

(Written on Anzac Day, April 25, 2016)

Gathering

“Come to me”

I heard these silent words

as I came to start a bright new day

and a brilliant full moon

lit my way.

Clouds float by

anti-clockwise

as cool winds blew

rose petals strew

and I witnessed all from my room

within.

Yes a new day begins

and I am here

present to what’s becoming clear

Focus Forward Move Along

the breeze lifts

the winds are strong

the clouds now roll along.

Yes I see the way is clear ahead

it seems, and true it is

that the past is now back there

and the rising light greets the day

as new times arrive

and all the old is left behind.

You are shown a living room

where faith will bring

the answers to

all the challenges facing you.

The blue skies shine

as clouds have cleared

the day is calm

you bathe in sunshine and quietly rest

know and believe what is best……

Home again truly blessed

(Written on April 23, 2016 Part 3 of The Golden Birds Trilogy)

Drawings by Anastasia Catris and mindfully coloured-in by Bee Porteous

'Colour me Mindful - Birds' by Anastasia Catris, Orion UK

For You

I will hold the light, she said,

I will quietly sit by the bed

and through the day into the night

all will be lit

beside you.

And together

I know we will meet

those who come indeed to greet

you.

And still you sleep

as I,

gently weep into the dawning of a new day

so Farewell Dear One, you hear me say.

Gone with the flowers

to brighten all

comes the colourful Autumnal Fall

comes the beginning

following on

we all know

you tip-toed home.

There were all these years

you held the lamp

you kept the fires glowing

you expanded knowledge

turned endless pages

and became The Elder of the ages.

Hold quietly still until your calling.

From A Bird

So why did we not see, what was obviously

visible to the birds.

The birds who flew

who sang,

who knew,

who nested safely and fed their young,

who twittered quietly when the day was done

who sang to the skies from within shrubbery

who perched in the tree-tops with a view to the sea.

If only the bird of spirituality

was heard like words of clarity

to those who miss the brighter song,

who need life’s pain

to bring the rain

to cleanse the lands

to start again.

So quietly here I go…….

Greeting and Meeting

This one is for you

as I greet the day

and bring you through

as I meet our pain

and I feel melancholy

so release again.

As I stretch myself

on the inside

and lean in to

hide my depths

as I go each day

to extraordinary lengths

to know myself

and you

and over there too

and here in the hills

where I’ll live until

I go there

or next place where

it is only time

and there is only now

as here I am

learning how

to greet my shadow

and be the Light

as I feel radiance

and then dark night

as I go out further

and dive in deeper

as I wish I was a jasmine creeper.